Before the summer began I was told this by a few people: This summer... you need to figure out what you want.

I took this beyond what I want, to who I am. I don't know me, I didn't know me at all.

This summer was suppose to be a summer of discovery. Mostly a summer of discovering more about myself. This was my one and only goal, to figure out me. To figure out what I want out of life...

The summer has turned out thus far to be one of the bumpiest roller coaster rides I have been on in my life. It has been full of heart ache, friendship, adventures, romance, amazing blessings, horrible luck, etc.
I am still waiting to see what comes of this summer, what comes of my road to self discovery. I am waiting to see how this summer works in my life.

But I do have a little to show for the discovery part of things:

I have thus far discovered that you can't always trust people. That friends who you were close to, people who you have lived with can turn out to be completely different people than you thought you knew them to be.

I have discovered so many new things in my relationship with God. Somethings good, somethings bad.... but have learned so much and have grown so much. I have really discovered that I need to stop worrying so much, that God will see me through. He will work good through me. I should depend on God and not worry myself into a fit.

I have discovered that no matter how bad your situation is, there is always someone who is one step in front of you on the road to self destruction.

I have discovered my really random passion and talent for photography.

I have discovered NEVER take a job that is at all shady. You may be out $800 that you worked your ass off for.

I have discovered not to assume, not to judge... for things will most likely turn out opposite of what you expect. This is sometimes a GREAT thing if you are pessimistic, like me... OR this can turn out to be a really really bad thing... for those times you decide to stop being negative and take the optimistic side of things.

I have discovered that I should of left when I had the chance. I regret it... always.

I have discovered that sometimes you just need to... be adventurous.

I have discovered that I do have a temper, and need to learn how to control it.





THIS list is to be continued as the summer progresses.