20 somethings to 20 somebodies
1.Honestly, I really do wish that we could of worked things out. You were all I had for awhile and now I don't have you at all. I still to this day do not even know why. Hopefully you love your drug addiction more than you ever loved me.
2.It isn't bitchiness, it is mixed emotions. I don't know quite how I feel. I am a whirlwind of feelings about to explode. So it isn't you, it's me.
3.I feel bad for walking into your life. I don't deserve the kindess you've shown me. No worries, I am gone now... so things can go back to being less complicated.
4.I do not agree with your decisions, and I think you are making a HORRIBLE MISTAKE. But what do I know?
5. You are a different person now...
why did you change?
6.You tore us all apart for your own personal enjoyment. I know that, I am not as dumb as I seem. I was however, dumb enough to thing it meant something when it didn't. I was dumb enough to eat up that line of bullshit you fed to me.
7.You put yourself in this situation, and I really don't feel sorry for you at all. In fact, I am kind of glad karma is kicking you in the face.
8.Stop hurting me. I don't deserve it...and when I get the nerve I will say it to your face.
9.I would do anything.... give anything... to go back and fix things.... I am sorry that I hurt you, and I would do anything to go back and change it all.... just know that to this day, 3 1/2 years later... that my actions still haunt me.
10.You inspire me.
11.My mind will eventually forget,
But my heart will never forgive you.
12.You are starting to sound
just like I did... how ironic is that?
13.I miss you so much. It still hurts just as bad, if not worse. I think of you everyday. I paid you a visit the other day, in the snow. I cried about it for the first time in months. I just wish it could of been me instead. You were worth something. You were bright, beautiful, talented, amazing. I love you.
14. I still love you, through everything. I still love you enough to walk away.
15. Did you know that this would be the month? I think about it every morning I wake up.
16. Thank you for being there. Thank you for the random goodnights and joyful hellos. The talks, the coffee, the friendship. Thanks for being a goofball with me, and putting a big smile on my face. Thanks for trying your hardest to make everything okay. Thank you for cards in the RSC, and random phone conversations that begin with "Are you wearing clothes right now." Thanks for funny pictures, and fabulous-ness. Thanks for our secret handshake and for running into poles.I really don't know what I would do without you right now...
17. I sometimes wish that nowadays I could just come and curl up in a ball and cry under your desk like I could in high school. When I could skip class and come sit there in total silence and feel better. I read that book the other day, I think I may pay you a visit. I need it badly, I'm lost and have made a very big decision. I know you'll honor that decision.
18. I try so hard to fix things, and although people think it's crazy I still want to. It is funny because you don't deserve the fact that I care how it turns out in the end.. and that I can't just walk away.
19. I miss you, come home.
20. Let me go. Please, just let me go.
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