a few months away?

The spring semester starts a week from today and I am not really sure how I feel about that. I know it will be great seeing my friends but the idea of "school" just doesn't tickle my fancy.

I spent the break doing nothing but relaxing, trying to over come being sick and that hasn't gone so well. One thing I didn't do is work on my make up jury material. I should of spent this entire break working on my jury pieces when actually I haven't even touched that music since Dec. 4th. And remember how I was actually relieved to take an incomplete because I didn't have a monologue ready for my original jury?? Well I could of spent the break picking a really great monologue (like maybe one from Agnes of God) and make it FIERCE, and that sure didn't happen either. I am such a slacker and I know when I walk into Brian's office next week I am going to get my face ripped off. Angela and I are going to run through all my music on Sunday before rehearsal, and I am scared.

I AM GOING TO SOUND LIKE CRAP.

I am actually excited that CHILDREN OF EDEN rehearsals start this Sunday! I adore working with Karen and it really will just be nice doing a show. I don't know what part I am playing, she said I'd find out on Sunday.

I have a pretty laid back semester ahead. I am actually NOT taking 24 hours!! Right now I am at 17 and getting ready to add one more class. Not gonna lie, a lot of them are dance classes. I am stoked to loose all this weight that I have put on from not dancing because of the intense beatings my body has taken over the last year.

So I am looking at the positive sides of the upcoming semester and then I just think how much I don't want to go to school and how much I don't want to deal with people's shit.

Honestly, that is all the theatre department is. It is drama. People talking shit on other people, people sleeping around, people back stabbing. It kills me. I really don't like being around it. The things I see happen make me sick to my stomach.

ah... I want to just take a semester off. I want to just pack up and go away for a few months... Breckenridge maybe?? Not deal with anyone or anything... just go away without my cell phone or my computer. Just have me time. It would be amazing. I still have a week to make that decision, and there is this amazing cozy little condo owned by my grandparents that I could easily get a key to.

So tempting.

So tempting.

So if you don't hear from me a week from now... I will be in Breckenridge. ALONE.