Starting a new blog, this one for myself.
I guess it's purpose will be used for venting and just talking about life. Not a site I am planning on flaunting.
For all you strangers in cyber space, here I am... in the open.
Now it is 1:52 am on this very cold, snowy evening. I guess it actually is morning is it not? I do not like snow much, and that is a problem for me since there is quite a large amount of snow outside.
The roads are slick, and the sidewalks are slushy.
I hope everyone is safe in their adventures.
I however do not plan on any adventures for awhile.
I stayed in tonight do to being a bit depressed, thanks to my parents.
There has always been a bit of tension in that department which grew in great measures this afternoon as they ripped apart every bit of me. Criticizing my entire existence. Usually I wouldn't let this bother me, but it did. It did because most of the things they said were false. They said things that I didn't ever imagine they would say. And the spent a lot of time emphasizing on my weight, which is something that already is bothering me. They just hit close to home with every word and left me in a heap of sobs and hate. Hate is such a strong word, I know... but I do believe that was the feeling shooting through my veins.
I know it happens, everyone fights with their parents... but not like we fight. It really is unbelievable. I figured if I moved away, gave them space... then... everything would get better.
it did, but things will never be perfect...
especially when every time I see them they point out my flaws.
I know I have flaw, I know this.
It just brings me to tears that things always have to be like this. Why can't we just be a family, a family who doesn't hate each others every move.
Sunday, December 3, 2006
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