Agnes of God - final

Today was my acting final an although it did not go as well as I wanted it to I still see it as a step up for me. I knew I was going into that room with an unprepared scene, a scene that was not crafted enough to be presentable... but as a final we had to do it anyway.
I was actually please with most of what Drew said, although most of it wasn't as positive as I would have liked... it was great constructive criticism.

He told me that he at first thought (with my size) that I was unfitting as the role of Agnes but after seeing the scene he saw that it oddly worked. It gave me a sort of vulnerability, being a larger female that you can't necessarily get from being skinny. He told me that in some instances, such as Agnes's breakdown, I pulled the emotion from nowhere (which I need to work on) and that it really wasn't believable partly due to my partner not grasping her role of the therapist. (and I sort of do feel bad because it seemed the notes of things done wrong were pushed mostly on my partner and the few positive notes were mine. I know she noticed that after a comment made after class. )He gave great criticism and even told me that he would like to see me do more Agnes of God scenes in the future which really kind of made it all worth it. It made me feel that for once I actually did something right for Drew, even though it wasn't anywhere even close to perfect.... That he could see potential in me as an actress. I knew that playing Agnes would be a long shot for me because of my size, but it was something that I really wanted to try and do. I wanted to try and make a role work for me even though I am larger. It is an intense scene and I really wish that I would of had more time to work on it than just a few days. More time to craft it. I was told by a classmate that he believes that I do have the emotional vulnerability that it takes to play that character and that he thought I did a pretty decent job. That also made me feel better about the scene. I agree, I do have the emotional vulnerability and many personal experiences to pull from. The hardships in life are things that can help an actor.

I am very anxious for my next acting class with Drew. Now that I understand the methods and have soaked in everything he taught me this semester. I do believe being in that Adv. Acting class was the best thing in the world for me.

I was thrown into his Adv. Acting class after never working with him which really sort of scared me from day one. The Acting 1 class we freshmen music theatre majors took our first semester of college taught us nothing. So when I walked into Drew's class his for lecture really hit me. That caused me to hold back and not work. I did eventually towards the end of the semester start to work my little tail off and he even told me that he wished that I would of done this sort of work early on. IT is just I went into that class with nothing, a fresh slate. And that slate was scribbled over with my first scene attempt.

I am thinking about starting over though. Although already taking Adv Acting I think that next fall I Am going to take Acting 1 with Drew to work on my technique and learn more about crafting and such. I will also take his scene study class as well, but I believe that taking that Acting 1 class and starting from the beginning with him is the best option for me.

I am excited, anxious... to act... to work... to do more scenes....

which is the feeling I have been waiting to feel for sometime now.