I haven't been feeling very close to God lately. In fact, it has been that way for quite a long time. I let myself stray from his path, and I wasn't just walking away, I ran. The last year hasn't been the best, it really was quite hard. I found myself blaming God for everything that went wrong in my life. I had lack of motivation to read my Bible, have quite times, or pray in general. I was really lost.
I was fortunate enough to spend time this weekend with many people who I love. They are like family and this week was the first time in a long time that I actually felt cared about and were around people who love me unconditionally. It really helped me out of a rut being loved on and all. I really needed it and I know that God knew that. It was a great God thing, me getting to see them. I also sat and listened to the speaker a few times, and read the Bible.... and just.... felt him speaking to me in those few times.
Anyway, on the drive back home I just... spent quality time with God. I spent a lot of the time just listening to praise music and worshiping, and spent a lot of time praying and talking to God. I found myself breaking down in the car, driving through this intense rain. I just cried out to the Lord for forgiveness for straying from him. I just prayed and cried and felt myself in his arms. IT was the first time in a long time that I felt close to him.
In that car, on that highway tonight I rededicated my life. And in that instance the clouds parted and sunlight peeked from behind the black clouds. Within minutes the rain stopped and the sun just shined through clouds. It was absolutely breath taking. There were swirling colors all around me and I felt...renewed. I couldn't stop smiling after that happened and I just drove a long and talked with God. A man pulled up beside me and flipped me off because I was going 4 under the speed limit (because I am scared to death of rain) and I didn't even find it offensive, I just then prayed for that man. I prayed that God be with him in his journey and to soften his soul.
I really haven't felt this wonderful in a long time. It is going to take a lot of work to spiritually get back on track but I am so willing to do it. I have felt so empty lately and now I feel a stirring inside me, that emptiness being filled.
Tonight I am just going to stay in and pray, read my Bible and spend time with God.
I was fortunate enough to spend time this weekend with many people who I love. They are like family and this week was the first time in a long time that I actually felt cared about and were around people who love me unconditionally. It really helped me out of a rut being loved on and all. I really needed it and I know that God knew that. It was a great God thing, me getting to see them. I also sat and listened to the speaker a few times, and read the Bible.... and just.... felt him speaking to me in those few times.
Anyway, on the drive back home I just... spent quality time with God. I spent a lot of the time just listening to praise music and worshiping, and spent a lot of time praying and talking to God. I found myself breaking down in the car, driving through this intense rain. I just cried out to the Lord for forgiveness for straying from him. I just prayed and cried and felt myself in his arms. IT was the first time in a long time that I felt close to him.
In that car, on that highway tonight I rededicated my life. And in that instance the clouds parted and sunlight peeked from behind the black clouds. Within minutes the rain stopped and the sun just shined through clouds. It was absolutely breath taking. There were swirling colors all around me and I felt...renewed. I couldn't stop smiling after that happened and I just drove a long and talked with God. A man pulled up beside me and flipped me off because I was going 4 under the speed limit (because I am scared to death of rain) and I didn't even find it offensive, I just then prayed for that man. I prayed that God be with him in his journey and to soften his soul.
I really haven't felt this wonderful in a long time. It is going to take a lot of work to spiritually get back on track but I am so willing to do it. I have felt so empty lately and now I feel a stirring inside me, that emptiness being filled.
Tonight I am just going to stay in and pray, read my Bible and spend time with God.
1 comment:
hey i love yea girl and i am happy we have each other to talk to about things in life. i am always their to be your shoulder to lean on. so yea... just wanted you to know.
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