Courage, Fear, Change

True Courage comes from God, from understanding that he is stronger than our mightiest foes and wants to use his strength to help us.

"Be Strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouragedFor the Lord your God is with you wherever you do." Joshua 1:9

"Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you.I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10

One of the scariest things in this world is Change, but we must all be content and hopeful that the Lord will carry us through to better times. Change may be part of God's plan for us. We can trust God to take care of us through the changes. Change is something we all fear, but we should not fear for the Lord is with us. Just as it says in his scripture that:

"The Lord your God is with you!" Deuteronomy 20:1

"The Lord is my light and my salvation, what should I be afraid of?" Psalm 27:1

Fear is normal. Being paralyzed by fear, however, can be an indication that you doubt God's ability to care for you in the face of change.
If you take all your courage from another person, you will be left with nothing when that person is gone. IF your trust in God, you will have the strength to go on even when circumstances collapse around you.

Change is something that I myself have always been afraid of. I let fear stand in the way of my life. I am learning each and everyday to full trust the Lord and his will, that he will guide me. The Lord will take care of me for he has a divine plan for me. He created me to do great things. I must not fear, just trust in the Lord's will. Trust that he will guide and come to my aid. Trust that he is always present. He walks besides me and dances through life with me. He is mighty and strong and through him I have strength through all of my trials.

The Lord God is with you, he is mighty to save. HE will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his Love. he will rejoice over you with Singing" Zephaniah 3:17

God's plans for us are always for good. Unknown plans can be frightening, but when the plans belong to God, we can rest assured that we can expect something marvelous.

I must not fear, for the Lord will be my guide. He formed me for his great plan. I must trust his word as well as his love for me. The Lord will provide. The Lord created me for great things.

The Lord will FIGHT FOR YOU, you need only to be still" Exodus 14:14

I have great difficulty in just being still and letting God in. Sometimes it feels like I am praying to a wall and all of my praises and prayers bounce off the wall and right back. I must let the Lord in. I must strive to seek wisdom.

Remember:

May 3-5 7:30 PM May 6 2:00 PM

Wilner auditorium

CHILDREN OF EDEN

You can't stop the beat...

I am SOOO stoked for the new HAIRSPRAY movie.

So excited!

Of all the gifts we have received

One is most precious and most terrible

The will of each of us is free

It's in our hands

And if we hear a voice

If he speaks again, our silent father

All he will tell us is the choice

Is in our hands

Our hands can choose to drop the knife

Our hearts can choose to stop the hating

For ev'ry moment of our life

Is the beginning...

There is no journey gone so far

So far we cannot stop and change direction

No doom is written in the stars

It's in our hands...

We cannot know what wil occur

Just make the journey worth the taking

And pray we're wiser than we were

In the beginning

It's the beginning

Now we begin...

Children of Eden

Grant us your pardon

All that we leave to you is the unknown

Children of Eden

Seek for your garden

You and your children to come

Some day to come home

Children of Eden
Wichita State University
Wilner Auditorium
May 3-5 7:30
May 6 3:00

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A lot is going to go down tomorrow. A lot.

no good.

La la la

I hit a high E flat today in my lesson. Brian was surprised/pleased to say the least. According to Him I am truly this coloratura soprano who is dieing to break out. I still don't even know what exactly a Coloratura is. I looked up some stuff and the Definition of Coloratura being: singing with florid ornamentation, powerful, dramatic, Acrobatic.
He said if I get these high notes really well then Marie will fall in love with me and force me to change me major to Opera which WILL NEVER happen. I guess I am pretty please with things though. Although I am sick I was hitting some unbelievable notes today with much ease.
I also have started singing a new song, from SIDESHOW.... and I have fallen in love with it. It is just.. I just love singing it. And it sure supplies that High E flat among other things.

Children of Eden has started, and let me say it will be one roller coaster ride, but I am excited. The music is amazing and we've already roughly learned most of it. Yes, most of it in two days... because in our department they like things to be rushed. Since I am still a little sick, I sometimes sit back and just listen to those around me... and so far it actually sounds pretty great. I know that this is going to be a wonderful show.
I am so excited for Dawn to arrive and start working the choreography, if anything what this show will have is amazing choreography from the original choreographer. Stoked.

Since spring break has ended I have been proud of my drive to get things accomplished. (especially along the lines of dance classes) ...
List of things this week that I am proud of:

-Today was the first day I actually jumped and turned on my left foot. Stepped right out and did a double with ease, which please me. I am excited that I am healing, just in time for Children of Eden. My jumps weren't amazing.. but hey... at least I got up the nerve to try... and it didn't even hurt that bad!

- I have actually been going to dance classes my friends! That's right.. yesterday morning I was in ballet class. Amazing.

-I managed to make it 20 minutes early for my 8:00am English class and I even participated in our intellectually challenged group discussions.

-I have been practicing my music out the wazoo and have memorized ALL of my music for the semester. (except for one of the two new pieces that I received yesterday)

-Although still a little on the ill side, my voice rehearsals with Julie and my make up lesson all went wonderfully. I was actually really proud of my singing for once. Its just... it just felt Nice to sing, and I haven't let that feeling come out in a long time. I have been so worried about all sorts of different things... but this week I just let go sang... glorious feeling.


-I have already gotten a head start on my next paper. WOW.


Anyway, now all I need to do is keep this drive up for the rest of the semester.